Tuesday 15 July 2008

I'm a Blogger

So This is my first post on my new blog so bear with me not totally sure what to put lol.
Well hi there I'm Jo 23 nearly 24 in a few days (I'm thrilled) anyway. I suffer with Cystic fibrosis it's not nice and it's a massive pain in the bum! stops me doing the normal things that people do. It never used to but the past year it has progressed so badly . Am going through the process of getting on the transplant list. It's unbelievably scary so many questions going through my head
what if they say no cos of my weight? (i'm very underweight)

what if they say my lungs aren't to bad yet?

it's awful i'd feel very sad and upset if they say no.
Guess i'll find out soon when my appointment comes through. I'll be honest i've never been the best at doing my meds and physio but is anyone? I'm better at it now then i was a few years ago. Anyway I don't really get to do alot of things that i enjoy anymore it sucks! But i'm trying to get on with it it's hard exhausting emotionally and physically. I'd love to be able to take my little dog Dave for a walk, go clothes shopping in the big centre we have here but if i want to i have to use my wheelchair and i refuse to use it i still have my pride sounds silly but it's the way i am! Would love to go out dancing and having a good giggle and meeting new people But i can't cos my lungs and body just don't allow me to. Would love to have a bf aswell but am to scared to be with anyone as i feel it's unfair with me being ill all the time . Plus can't find a guy who excepts me for me! Don't get me wrong i do go out and have friends it's just hard when you feel you can't join in in certain things ya know i feel like i'm restricting them in away and i don't like it. Maybe if i get some new lungs i can enjoy myself again and do the things i want to do. anyways i've rambled enough as it is lol will try and update this blog everyday well it's not like i have anything better to do hehe mwah! xx

1 comment:

Me said...

welcome to blog land! ill add you to mine so they are linked. I dunno if anybody reads them but I think they are nice to have as a kind of online diary!